Christmas Love


You made my heart so small and weak
so I can be amazed at how big and strong Your love is.

Your love is so big that my small heart cannot contain it;
so I let your love not just fill my heart, but overflow from my heart
to the hearts of others that you've put in my life.

Your love is so perfect and amazing;
I don't want to be selfish and have it all for myself.
I want your love, your light, to be revealed, shine, and fill other's heart.

Thank you for being perfect and amazing Father.
Thank you for sending your only Son and forgiving us.
Thank you for the cross.

Make me strong so that I can share the burden of Christ
Make me compassionate so that I can carry the cross with Christ

Help me stay faithful to you. Help me be a better servant for you.
Use me to bring you glory!

"May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other for you.
May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy
in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all His holy ones."
1 Thessalonians 3:12-13

From a Hollow Man


Without the lights,  it would just be a plain looking tree in a bare land of snow.
Without Your light, I would just be hollow man in a deserted world filled with troubles.

Thank you for shining Your light on such an unworthy child like me.
Thank you for filling my heart with Your incredible and unchanging love.
Fill my heart with your love and holy spirit.
Help me bold and stand firm in this trouble-filled world.
I've seen and I believe.
Let my heart never settle in my little comfort zone.
Let my heart always break for the sufferings and the pains of this world.
LOVE
I was made from love; made to love; and made to be loved.
Let this love overflow from my heart and reach out to others.
Father!
Let your light shine. Let your glory be revealed.
Let your will be done on this earth.
Let your love fill this earth. fill the hearts of those in need.

Christmas is coming!
Let my heart rejoice in truth and love with purity and sincerity.

"For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace"
Romans 8:6

소음

달렸다. 또 달렸다.

계속 달렸다.

그런데 너무 앞만 봤나보다.

다 끝나고 나서 한 숨 돌리고 나서야
느껴지는 공허함
답답함
허무함
그리고 두려움

지난날 노력하지 않은 것에 대한 후회인가
지난날 내게, 그리고 다른이들에게 한 모든 거짓됨에 대해 죄책감인가

두렵고 어떻게 해야할지를 모르겠어서
무조건 잘못했다고 한다
또 한번의 기회를 달라고 한다

나라는 인간은 왜 자꾸 똑같은 레퍼토리에서 벗어나질 못하는걸까
똑같은 굴레
뫼비우스의 굴레처럼 끝없이 반복하고 또 반복한다

나를 좀 더 난 사람으로
나를 좀 더 강한 사람으로
그렇게 계속 거짓으로 나를 포장해간다

이런 내가 무섭다

자꾸 내 자신에게 진다
점점 내 자신이 무섭다

생각이 많아진다
소음이 많아진다

어디선가 읽은 적이 있다.
To be saved cost us nothing..
To be discipled cost us everything.

마음이 무겁다.
계속 내 자신을 타이르고 또 타이르면서
여기까지 오긴 했는데...
자꾸 아기가 되어간다
내 자신의 짐을 이겨내지 못하고
자꾸 가라앉는다

그리고 또 생각한다
소음이 많아진다



정말 기도만하고 싶다.

Promise - Joshua 1:9

"Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed."
-1 Peter 4:12-13



Happy to share the sufferings of Christ.
Happy to know that He is drawing me near.
Happy to be humbled
Happy to have more of Him and less of me in my heart

 
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps."
- Proverbs 16:9



Silencing all the noise in this world and within myself...
Because all there is left for me to do is to listen and read, and surrender to Your perfect will.

Until every part of my body and soul is purified with the blood of Christ, I will sing my heart out.
 
Just as you promised, just as you gave me Joshua 1:9 in the beginning of my journey in college...
 

 
"For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ."
- 2 Corinthians 1:5

This is His design



Starry Night by Chris August
From the Birds that Sing, In the Tallest Trees.
To the Human Life, of you and me.
From the Desert Sands, to the place we stand.
He is God of All, He is Everything.

I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the Moon reflect the sun.
Every Starry Night, that was His design.
I'm giving my life to the only son, who was and is and yet to come
Let the praises ring, 'cause he is everything
'Cause he is everything

From the Autumn Leaves, that will ride the breeze
To the Faith it takes, to pray and sing
From the Painted sky, to my plank filled eye
He is God of all, He is everything

I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the Moon reflect the sun.
Every Starry Night, that was His design.
I'm giving my life to the only son, who was and is and yet to come
Let the praises ring, 'cause he is everything.

Ohhhhhhh (everything)
Hallelujah (Hallelujah)
Hallelujah
I believe
Ohhh
Hallelujah (Hallelujah)
Hallelujah
I believe

I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the Moon reflect the sun
On that Starry Night, He changed my life.
I'm giving it all to the only son who gave me hope when I had none.
So let the praises ring,

Ohhhh Let the Praises Ring

I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the Moon reflect the sun.
Every Starry Night, that was His design.
I'm giving my life to the only son, who was and is and yet to come
and the Angels sing, that he is Heavenly

So let the Praises ring
'Cause he everything

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Listening to the radio in a car on the way to church to prepare a farewell party for a friend,
a familiar tune caught my attention earlier tonight.
 
Starry Night by Christ August
 
I must have heard this song many times on the radio in a car after Sunday School,
because I don't have this song in my itunes and I don't listen to the radio unless I'm in a car.
 
We encounter so many different things in our lives that often times, we don't get to appreciate our surroundings as much as we really should.
It wasn't until today(by that I mean Friday night) that I really listened to the lyrics and really appreciated the song.
I've known the chorus part a bit, but I don't think I ever really tried to listen and sing it with my heart.
 
Ah, what a beautiful confession...
 
I like the night sky. I like the stars and the moonlight.
I like the silence and the stillness of the nature after 3 am in the morning.
 
"I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the Moon reflect the sun.

Every Starry Night, that was His design.
On that Starry Night, He changed my life.
I'm giving my life to the only son, who was and is and yet to come
and the Angels sing, that he is Heavenly
I'm giving it all to the only son who gave me hope when I had none.

So let the praises ring."

His design. His beautiful and perfect design beyond my comprehension.

Life is hectic - filled with troubles. ups and downs; rollercoaster.
People are interesting - unique and different in one way or the other
It's interesting that all these strangers meet, be friends, trust, share, love, and live on their lives.
There is nothing in this world that's not His design.
He is everything and everywhere.
He is the only one who is faithful and unchanging; everlasting.

We change.
No matter where we are, what we are doing, how we've changed...
He remains the same God.

The Father I met yesterday is the Father I meet today, and the Father I will meet tomorrow.
The Father I meet at home is the Father I meet in my dorm, and the Father I will meet anywhere else.

There is no word that can justly proclaim how amazing, awesome, and perfect He is.

Listening to Starry Night and be moved suddenly tonight is His plan as well.
Thank you Father for a beautiful starry night.

By His love I've become a new creation; give it all to Him and let the praises ring.


PS. Only ironic thing would be there was no stars on the sky last night - snow.
But it's okay. Stars aren't the only beautiful creation that He made for us as reminders of His love.